Drawing on my year-long experience conducting ethnographic fieldwork to understand the sociocultural construction of shame about sexuality among 72 urban middleclass boys and girls (15-19 years) living in Dhaka, this paper discusses how I think my affiliation with a Dutch University as a PhD researcher has influenced my rapport building with the research participants. On one hand, it positioned me as an ‘outsider’ to the participants – as someone from a Western country who is familiar with modern notions of sexuality. On the other, this ‘outsider’ position helped me to obtain an ‘insider’ status without much struggle. Participants saw their views of sexuality as modern as opposed to that of their parents’ generation and assumed my views would be similar to theirs. Hence, they thought they could openly share their thoughts and experiences about sexuality with me, which are usually considered taboo and cannot be discussed with an adult. This article contributes to the ongoing debate on the fluidity of insider/outside boundaries in anthropological research and suggests that these boundaries are often thin and blurred particularly when a researcher studies her own culture and own community.
Ms. Camellia is a South Asian feminist anthropologist. Currently she is doing her PhD at the Gender & Diversity Studies of Radboud University, the Netherlands. Her research aims at gaining a better understanding of what sexuality means to young people in Bangladesh through the concept of ‘shame’.